Good things happen, yes they do. And they make you realize that they're happening at the right time under every aspect. They happen and they bring with them the reminder that sometime we simply can't understand why things are happening in a certain way and at a certain time, but still we should have enough faith to know in our heart that everything will turn out good, and not only for ourselves. In the hard times i'm so focused on my troubles that i don't realize that whatever i am living can touch in a way or another, the life of so many other people, so maybe ( or probably ) what is happening has to be good not only for me\us. I know it doesn't make much sense, but i'm not ready to tell more yet :) but i will, in a while.
Just the day before this something happened, while i was drifting away in a river of sorrow i bumped in something wonderful to which i clinged with all my heart, to find out the very next morning that a true miracle had happened just while i was writing down on my visual journal this sweet treasure.
We have all been a little numb all the rest of the week. I think it takes a while to close a very long and hard season of our life. Then Seba has also been sick for a couple of days, so we're taking it not really easy, but very relaxed, doing very few and doing it calmly, trying to do whatever we enjoy the most.
PapaF busied himself with a new Juke-Box
While i finished this little granny squares blanket, that ended up to be a little comforter for little sick Seba ( it seems that it has the magical ability to give sweet dreams ! )
I hope everybody had a good week, please if you have sometime leave me a little comment, i'd love it !
.... it describes the way i feel. No energy or will to do anything. I'd just like to hybernate underground until better times. So many things happening and i'm so tired. Few words, some pics.
I wish everybody a lovely week and a wonderful life :)
Just like in the womb, or the magic world of twins
And so today it's my birthday. I turned 34. Wow. It seemed so far away turn 20 lol. Not much to say beside the fact that i wanted to send my most heartfelt thank you to all my friends abroad for remembering me in this day. Beside my immediate family you've been the only ones. I love you all, really. Here some pic from today.
This morning when i woke up the table was already beautifully set
Seba yesterday made and hung this decorations. The 'gingerbread men' say 'Happy birthday' ( buon compleanno ) filled with little hearts.
This was the beautiful present Seba did for me : knitting needles out of chinese sticks from the restaurant :) and the bag to carry them. He sewed it himeself.
These are Leo's presents, he asked me what i'd like to have and i said a new sewing machine, a dog and a one way plane ticket for Finland. He got me all of them. Lovely.
Then here the girly and homey presents Gaia chose for me along with papaF, a flower mug, a flower pitcher and a flower vase to keep my wooden spoons and forks.
I spent most of the day knitting, and i also got a little friend working along me ....
Eheheheheheh ! The more i age the crazier i become. The kids had a blast with this :)))))
And here my real presents. My four precious kids
And here all the family. I look a bit tired. Guess what ... I am. But this shall pass.
As i said at this moment i have a bright future behind me. But hopefully soon we'll have again a bright future in front of us.
May this new year in my life and in the life of my family bring peace, joy, happiness and love.
P.S. I've been asked in a comment ( please please forgive me, i published the comment but didn't pay attention on which post it was, so i can't find your name ) where i found Steiner curriculum for homeschooling. I found something on this site but i wanted to point out that our general homeschooling doesn't follow a Steiner curriculum, mostly i take ideas that best suit my children, either Steiner, Montessori or just traditional stuff.
It seems that finally i can get some moment to update this neglected blog of mine. It seems we're having hard time going back to *normal* day to day routine after Christmas time. For us Christmas time has been especially hard because of all the problems in our larger families ( on both sides ) and of course being Christmas about family, and as someone said ( sorry can't figure out who said it right now ) when family hurts Christmas may hurt as well, and of course it affected mostly the kids. We're having hard time with our homeschooling. Especially Gaia has litterally given up on learning or being interested in anything and also Leo seems to be back to his 'old' self, refusing to work. I'm trying with extra patience, but in the last 10 days we accomplished really few. Well Milla on the opposite loves formal schooling ( she will be 6 in february ) and i had to buy for her first grade books. Call this a rollercoaster ride.
Well better being short. I have a tendency to whine in this period and i don't like it. I prefer to be a 'joy finder' then focus on our problems. Here some pics of the last ten days :)
Leo and Seba in their veterinary clinic
The scale Seba built ( he did the project, asked for wood and screws and with some help he realized it )
Gaia's triplets :)))))))
Gaia and Milla
Sisterly love :) they seem to be on a cloud isn't it ?
And again, sisterly love :)
Here my granny squares, at the moment i'm crocheting them together in a blanket with a very pale pink wool. I'll show you when it's done
Here Gaia with the velvet shirt i sewed for her and the gilet made out of granny squares i crocheted for her.
And here the kids restaurant ( i took the pics just half an hour ago )
The tables are set and the plates are full :)
Ok, it seems i was wrong, probably it's not a restaurant but a bed&brekfast
Milla cooking soup :)
I hope all of you are doing wonderfully. If you drop by and have a little time i'd welcome very much your comments. Life can be quite lonely from time to time.
Have a peaceful and joyful weekend, dear ones around the world.
In the last couple of days so many things happened that brought such a big big happiness in this heart of mine.
Once again i've been proved i'm cared, and provided for, and loved and so do those Ilove .
Kids are kids and all i can say about them is that they're the truly gift of all my life. Even when they drive me crazy. Even when i'm worried sick they might get lost at some point ( and i don't mean 'phisically' lost - or at least not only ) in their life. Life with them is a neverending wonder and i am so grateful for the gift of their birth, for their life at my side, for being the witness and the friend and the mother and the teacher of these 4 human being. Thank you Lord !
Playing 'little house' in the living room
Leo's getting out from home lol
Milla and Tappo ( i love the way she is laughing ! )
And again Milla and Tappo in a more calm moment
Our beloved rabbit Tappo
And here Gaia, she is growing so fast. She is really a young woman now.
And Seba, he would probably need a haircut, but we never have the heart to :)
Leo is working withthe laptop
And then yesterday we got news something potentially terrible happened in Finland, and this might have harmed pretty badly one of our dearest friend. A train went off rail at the Helsinki railway station and the train litterally 'jumped ' in our friend work place (give a look here ) . The article is wrong when it talks about a hotel, actually it didn't jump into the hotel. But well the main point being that nobody was in the office in that moment. We got the news from him and still the kids were horrified at the thought of what might have happened. Once again gratitude is the word that comes to my mind.
And then today, once again something wonderful happened to me. I got a beautiful and sweet Christmas card from a dear blog friend Pom Pom. She is so caring and sweet, and she has been such a Godsend in a moment of my life in which i deeply need someone so caring and inspiring, able to spread love and happiness as she can do so easily. Dear friend thank you so much.
Here this year's Christmas cardsin display. A cherished tresure to keep forever.
And then tonight. Tomorrow in Italy we celebrate the Epiphany, to remember the visit the magi payed to baby Jesus. Tomorrow will put an end to Christmas. Decorations will be taken down the day after tomorrow and stored away. But tonight kids hang stockings that will be filled with sweets and candies during the night.
So kids went to bed earlier today, thrilled and excited and tomorrow morning they'll jump off bad at the beginning of the day to find out what's in their stockings. They even put one for the rabbit :)) lol
And from tomorrow we'll be back to 'normal' life. No more Christmas school. No more Christmas tree or wreath. But the love Christmas brought us will stay. The love that a sacred family of two thoused years ago showed us is neverending. The gift of peace and love Jesus gave us is the most precious one.
And you know what ... just a normal life with my family is so much that sometime i think i don't deserve such a luxury, but of course i will enjoy and cherish it with all my heart and soul :)
Here it is, year 2010. The year my dear oldest doughter will turn 10. It seemed so far away the very idea of this tiny little newborn girl to be ten, and the year 2010 so far away too, after celebrating the new millenium. But time sure flies isn't it ? Many thoughts cross my mind in this period. I know i am at a turning point. I feel lost, so often. I have to remind myself that the only thing i need is to follow straight that light that always shines in my heart, even when the outside darkness seems so bigger.
I hope that all of you, who read here silently, and all of you, dear friends, who i got to know thanks to this blogland of ours, and all of you, far away friends reading our adventures to stay in touch with us, will have such a good, peaceful and happy year. With all my heart.
Christmas Eve. Our nativity. I loved it this year :)
Christmas morning, Santa's been here tonight !
On 29th dear uncle Massimo and aunt Morena came for dinner and brought some more presents :) here the youngest watching a movie with the brand new teddy bears
Melting lead for a little 'blacksmithing' experiment
And look, doesn't it looks like a miniature Statue of Liberty ? It was just a lead drop, but the shape is incredible, and we thought maybe it means finally next year we'll finally get out from the situation we're in for good. That would be great.
Warming up the stove for the last time in year 2009
( i admit i fell asleep on the sofa by ten. I've been woken up by the first fireworks blasting !)
May your light always shine my son.
Lead us to a new light, dear husband. We trust in you.